it's been 4 days from my 21 birthday. I was extremly sad that day. Were you happy then???there is nothing to be happy about. I loved my teen period. Now it is gone forever. I think about those times a lot and the most important thing that I miss about that times is myself. Now I don't have the time to be with myself anymore. Everything is more important than me. So many things are happening but those things don't have the smallest impact on my personal life. My personal life. What happened to it???My inner voice is gone and it cannot find it's way back.

my stuped blog doesn't want to be opened....again.
if anyone has an idea how to write a mock research paper on the subject "how to write research paper "email me and save my miserable life!!!!
PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what the hack is wrong here......
my blog cannot be opened
and |I wanted to write something very smart but no.......i protest.....objection.....:(sustained
strike.....

once upon A time there was me writing this blog
later on (after some six months) that girl went to macedonia and stayed there for some 2 monthsw so the blog was left without a single post for so much time
and then that girl came back to poland and moved from her parents....now she's got her own appartment and bills (and bills and bills and bills-any donation is welcomed) and she doesn't have a pc there so the blog was once again left alone
i know the blog misses me.... i promised him so much.....
mAYBE i will post some more in future but now unfortunately no computer, no internet.....not even a god-daMN type-writer....
so ta-ta for now

saw that someone has done a great job for all of us wannabe-blogmasters.......library of templates.geee!!!!
Can't wait to go home and work on this template stuff for a while because this template really makes me sick
I visit the villages around my town every day with my driving instructor and watch myself not to have hangover in sathurday morning because the worst thing had happened....'i have driving lessons on Sathurday at 8.am.......s.h.i.t.
aagain....I don't have time to write anything useful and worth reading...
so cut the crap and go to home...
sorry
bye

I was actually driving today.......and it really happened......and it is not so hard.......for now...

i just wanted to say hi......
right now I am trying to learn how to drive a car.......
and it's daaaaaaaaaaaamn complicated
but I will manage todo it (if not now then after 20th time faling the test)
wish me luck
(I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeed it)
cheeeeeers

so here i am after two days of travelling, crossing 5 countries in one day:))))) I am again in front of a very fast beautifull computer writing this never-ending storyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Bitola is beautifull in february, a day before valentines:)......sun, streets full of young people, pubs full of people drinking coffe and beer......I think i am going to like it here. After all it's the only place on earth which can be called home.
oooooooh beautifull sunny day
I am so excited that I can't write anything that would make too much logic
(aha......and a warning.....I won't be writing too often this month......or maybe i will.....depends on my inspiration)


have a nice february:)

I woke up in the early afternoon and I wanted to see the openings of the winter Olympics games in Salt Lake City and I sort of liked it.....everything except for the stuped red hats of the polish representation and another thing which made me really really nervous.
Imagine that the macedonian representation wasn't after Moldavia, Madagaskar and other countries on M but it was before France, as damn Former Yugoslav Republic.....The greek aristocracy in USA has done a perfect job.....but it's only a small victory for them....one day Macedonia will be on the Olympics with its real name and it's real flag...the beautifull sun with 16 rays....
OK, enough patriotic emotions for today. Right now I am reading "And then the ass saw the angel" by Nick Cave...and it's daaamn dark, pervert, cruel and great....
two more days to see MK....and somebody I miss very much...and hope he misses me too

yeaterday was kind of aniversary for me. I remembered about it 5 minutes ago when I took a look in my old diary (98). It's a fifth aniversary of me feeling for somebody....I still do.Had a nice thursday (guiness pub-live music) and a nice friday( diplomska-mainstream music) and it turned out that I spent more than I had ever imagined I could. Again. I have a guilty consciense right now.....Anywayss I was strong enough to say no, I won't go out on Sathurday....and I didn't. YEAh....I am proud of myself (from time to time)
I am too lazy too study, too lazy to do anything so I sind myself thousands of different obligations to do except for sitting in front of the bunch of xopied notes from history of the english language....and the clock goes tickling and counting the hours (3 more days) and I haven't done anything useful.
The scary part of all this is that I don't really listen music lately. It's unbeliveable. Music has always been one of the most important things in life for me. Now....silence in my room. Maybe I am just getting all...that happens to everybody right???I saw A. Morisette today on mtv. I hate her because her voice reminds me of the days when I actually enjoyed music.(97/98) Or maybe it was because I listened to music that I could enjoy. (lately I cought myself singin to britney spears)....
ooooooooh nostalgiaaaaaaaaaaaa :((((((((((((

btw. have you eer visited www.pornolyze.com????
go there and write down http://macedoniania.blogspot.com
and...enjoy the result:)))))
and remeber, it wasn't me